I just realized that, while I had been giddy all morning with friends via email, I completely neglected to mention to my blog-reading public that I am deliriously happy today. Sent a quick “I had a good time” email to Prince Charming, trying to send him one before he sent me one, since he’s always said it first. All worrying over the weekend was for naught – he had a good time and asked me out for Tuesday and this weekend. He also sent a link to the picture he took of us holding hands in our cargo pants, where my nail polish looks incredibly orange and ugly. I’m going to have to change that tonight. Sent the picture to Amanda and Liz and Alison, who shared greatly in my joy (OK, Liz hasn’t actually responded, but she is officially in-transit from Ohio, and I’m sure if she were here and checking her email, she would have). Alison and I made plans to color hair this weekend – I am in serious need of a dye job (1/2″ brown roots are not pretty), and she needs highlights again. Liz, I’m saving Friday night tentatively for you, assuming you don’t work that night. I want to see you this weekend sometime, and friends come first before boys! Friends are in for the long haul, and boys, well, usually not.
I’m still holding back, with Prince Charming himself and my friends in general. (Alison got a bunch of normally TMI and boring details, but being the good sister that she is, she only asked for more, and was screaming happy for me via email). It goes back to not being sure how I really feel (happiness about someone else enjoying spending time with you and liking you doesn’t really mean you like them necessarily) and having broken hearts before without meaning to. It sounds so arrogant, but I’ve seen the look in too many guys’ faces to not try and avoid it as much as possible.
Work is really slow, and Boss just left for a meeting. I’m listening to “Summer 2005” to avoid hearing co-workers talk loudly in the cube near me. So annoying. It’s decreased my joy slightly. I’m also starving, which could be killing my buzz.
Did I mention I feel like I’m 19 again? Let’s re-cap the great things in my life:
- I may not have many friends, but the ones I do have are wonderful and always there for me and willing to listen to me blather on incessantly.
- My family is increasingly more functional
- This is my first August in Minnesota where I haven’t been looking for a new place to live. Yay!
- I’m only working one job and feeling the tension melt away that is still residual from the extra one, becoming more laid-back every day. Yes, at some point I’ll need to find a part-time gig (preferably at Barnes & Noble or the Minnesota History Center if anyone is reading and wants to hire me), but for now I’m feeling relaxed and pretty lazy.
- There is a boy out there who likes me for me, and seems willing to take things slow, and makes me laugh and smile… more than any guy has before (startling revelation I just had). (Ignore self-conscious thoughts warning to not screw it up.)