Something I’m Not Very Good At

I… have to make a decision. I’m not a huge fan of that when it comes to insignificant things (where to go to dinner, what kind of paper to buy for the printer, etc). When it comes to big things, I’m half-and-half. Half the time, I have a gut instinct or a feeling about what the right decision is, or I “just know” the right choice and I do it. The other half of the time, I muddle around in it trying to figure out the best and worst of each option and which one I can live with.

I am also not very good at finishing projects (though I am very good at starting projects, and even better at finding projects I’d like to start), with the exception of schoolwork (which is, at its heart, a project that will take me years to finish). With schoolwork, I am very disciplined and organized and I finish what I start, etc. Everything else… eh.

So here’s how that all plays out at this moment. There are many things going on in my life right now, some more important than others, and not everything is going to be able to be a part of my life. I’m going to have to set priorities. Most likely, this will mean choosing the things that I don’t really care for all that much and neglecting the things I enjoy. Why? Well, because the things that aren’t so much fun are temporary and time-limited. What’s on the list? (Estimated time frame is the next 6 months, give or take a few months.)

  • Schoolwork.
  • Knitting.
  • Other crafting (soon to include playing with my new sewing machine, already includes jewelry-making and… collecting crafty things).
  • Keeping the house clean and liveable.
  • Decorating the house so I feel like I live there.
  • Spending time with husband.
  • Spending time with friends.
  • Spending time with family (this includes spending time with , which almost never happens these days and I’m very sad about that but what is a girl to do?)
  • Working out to build strength, muscle, bone density, and fit into my pants better.
  • Eating healthy (and yet still interesting and enjoyable) foods to fit into my pants better.
  • Refinishing my nightstand, followed shortly by my dressers.
  • Organizing things (pick something, anything – I enjoy organizing, and there’s always plenty of things in the house to organize or re-organize).
  • Learning new computer skills (currently acquiring knowledge on ASP).
  • Baking cookies, decorating cookies, getting better at decorating cookies (not eating cookies – this interferes with an earlier priority).
  • Playing video games (I think I’ve reached the end of Zelda, though, and given the length of this list, I probably shouldn’t go out and buy a new game for a while).
  • Finding new and exciting things on ebay, Etsy, etc.
  • Photographing (and videotaping) the cats (coming in the following weeks: a video of , which is bound to be entertaining).
  • Reading books.
  • Personal development (I’m sure that I could stand to spend some time on making myself a better person, but I haven’t even thought about what I’d like to work on next).
  • Gardening (do I even need to mention again how implausible this is and I should just give it up? but I can’t, and the internet isn’t helping. It’s spring, ya know).

Things that can be done at work (with the exception of learning ASP) have been left off the list, so we’re limited to things I can do at home the other 16 hours of the day plus weekends.

Here’s how I think this should play out. Priorities will be limited to: keeping self alive (so eating, sleeping, etc get to stay), keeping self in school, and getting house ready to sell. I mean, let’s be honest, those are things that are either necessary or time-limited. Technically putting the house on the market is not time-limited, but I think we feel like it is. We have too much stuff for our current house. We are crowded. Plus the market, while not being excellent right now, could be worse – houses are selling, financing rates are low, etc. We don’t have to sell, but it is preferable (by that I mean, we don’t have job offers in another state, there is no baby on the way for which we need a bigger house, and we’re not in any stage of foreclosure like many are these days).

Getting the house ready to sell is no small task. Getting any house ready to sell is no small task, let me be clear. It’s not the state of our house that’s the problem. It’s the idea that it has to be “perfect” for a buyer to want it. There are always things that need to be done in a house, and usually you ignore them, push them past your peripheral vision to the point that you forget that there isn’t a kickboard in the kitchen and that window is broken. Those things have to change, though, for someone else. They’re not going to ignore it or live with it. They’ll just buy someone else’s house.

Plus it means getting your house ready in such a way that it makes it nearly uncomfortable to live in. While model homes (the ideal standard for staging a house) are nice to visit, you can’t actually live in them, because people have crap. Receipts collect in your purse or coat pocket and get tossed onto the table in the entryway. Bills come, get opened, and put in a pile “to be paid” on the counter. Dishes get dirty because people need to eat. You see what I mean?

And, it wasn’t that long ago that I spent an entire summer moving (just over 6 months, actually), and I’m not exactly looking forward to doing it again, in that sense. I mean, I want to move and get all of my stuff back together again under one roof. But the idea of re-packing the stuff I’ve unpacked is kind of exhausting.  So you can see why, when I’ve finished my homework for the day, I’d rather knit and watch TV and ignore the list of things that needs to be done.  (On the list right now?  Make a list.  I know.  That’s where we’re at right now.)

I feel very fortunate that we have lots of family and friends who are more than willing to help us when it comes time to do the dirty work of carrying boxes and painting and stuff.  That is definitely a blessing.